Phone Call

I got a 3 minute phone call from Britt. We had a bad signal on my cell phone going thru the mountains on our we to the beach.
She is having a blast and misses everyone. She said Italy was dirty and stinky. (I guess, they are on a garbage strike.) She is sick of pasta and bread. Oh my, favorite. She is now in France. They went to the beach yesterday. Tomorrow, she will be staying with a family. I hope I will have another phone call.
I will update more about our weekend later.

Sucks!!!!!!!!!

Today has been such a trying day. First, Becca is home sick in Seattle with my step sister and her family. What am I to do. She is not eating and crying. I told her I would come and get her but she wants to stick it out. If she is not happy...................I hate it when my kids hurt.
The boys have been hell on wheels today. Why? I guess, maybe because ford and I had a fight last night. We don't agree on how certain things should be handled. I don't believe in spanking with a belt. He does. With out going into a of detail but my dad raised us with a firm hand. I don't want my kids raised that way. When ford get really tired, he has no patience with the kids. It has gotten worse over the past 6 months. Mainly, when his mom found out she had cancer. Sometimes, he just leaves my heart aching. I am not sure if his love is healthly for us. If that makes any sense? I don't want to live the rest of my life walking on egg shells. Hell, life is too short. Trust me.
I know I could raise the kids on my own. I don't want to. I want us to be a family and that is slipping away so fast. The girls are older and doing their own thing.
I just feel he sometimes takes everything and turns it around. Which, then makes me the bad guy. What the hell! I am the one that holds this family together. He is the one that comes home...............works on truck, eats, and goes to bed. Maybe, he's not happy. I just wish he would tell so I would know.

Email

I got an email from Britt. She is alive and well. She is having a hard time with the phones. She is having a blast and she did repell down the castle wall. Brave for her. I am so happy for her. My mood today has been on cloud nine. I think I smiled all day today. What a relief. More to come later.

Breath Deeply

Still no word! It is after midnight in Assisi Italy. Day 4 without hearing from her. I am sure it is because, phones and time are hard to find. I know they changed hotels. I was hoping for some sort of word from her today.
I hope she is having a blast. I wish I could so be there. Maybe, Ford and I can take a vacation there some day. I would have to lose weight first. I should make that a goal.
I know on Tuesday, they stay with a host family. Hopefully, I will get a call then. I am praying for a call then. I should have gotten the international cell phone rental. Oh well. I just need to breath deeply.

The Waiting Game

I have yet to hear from Britt. They are 9 hours ahead of us. I was hoping to hear from her today. I know some of the hotels don't have phones in the rooms and she is very busy. I did get a call from the phone tree and I know she landed safely and off they went.
I wish I would have done things differently. Such as a international cell phone, which I could have rented but didn't. I got her a international calling card to call from a pay phone.
Today they were going to the Vatican. I hope she is taking lots of pictures. They leave Rome tomorrow morning and head to Assisi Italy.
I will just wait and see if she calls. The waiting game is on.

Offical

Britt is off on an airplane across the ocean. We left the house this morning at 3 am to get to the airport. They started checking in the group at 4:15 got her checked in, something to eat, group photo and off thru securtiy. We said our good byes with tears, hugs, I love yous, and the I love you sign. I watched her walk thru security and to the other side. I am so scared and sad. She does not have her cell phone. I just hopes she knows how much I love her and how proud I am of her.
They left Portland landed in New York. Had a 4 hour lay over. I just checked on their flight to Italy and it will be 2 hours late. What the hell happened? I have know way of knowing. I can track her flight on-line. She has 4 hours of flight over the big wide sea. I know I will not be sleeping tonight and waiting for my phone tree call in the morning. I can get up at 3 and check to see if she landed. Italy is 9 hours ahead of us. I am hoping she is sleeping on the plane. I am sure she will be ok.
Britt I am very proud of you and glad you are my daughter. I am hoping for you to have a safe, wonderfull trip of a life time. I will be glad to see your smile in 20 days and counting. Love Mom

speachless

Happy 4th of July. We had a softball tournament all day. We lost all three of our games but Red played awsome. She had her game face on. I am very proud of her. There is a very stuck up group of moms that do not sit with any of the other parents or cheer on anyone elses kids. I was reminded today not to let it get to me. "They put their clothes on just like we do and their shit smells just like ours" I just get so angry. But, that in itself is a whole other post for another time.
We are able to watch the fireworks from our driveway and enjoy them. I didn't watch but the kids did. I let Brit go off to a party. Big mistake. Her best friend, brought her home and she was so drunk. I am at a loss of words at this point. She leaves for Europe next Sunday. It is one thing that is not acceptable in our house. I don't even know where to begin or what kind of punishment I need to do. I would love to know what she was thinking. At this point, I put a sleeping bag in the backyard and drug her ass out there. I guess, we will deal with it in the morning. Oh yah, she works tomorrow (today) from 11-9. We will see what happens. Some more fireworks;)