Why?

Why? On Fridays, we have late start at school. The kids have to fight all morning long. Not just the boys but the girls also. The girls have to be smart butts to me and Curtis. I give up on Fridays. I just want to know WHY? What a way to start the weekend.

Some days things just don't go the way they should. This week has been one of those days. The boys have done nothing but fight. The girls have just been mouthy. When will it ever end.
Last weekend was just awful. I am just emotionally drained. Curtis and I do not see eye to eye on alot of things and we just end up fighting. To the point that I was ready to leave with the kids. I have to have the last word and he has to always be right. I have yet to hear him say he was wrong or that he was sorry.
My brother's legal issues are pulling us all down. I just don't know how the x can just make up stuff and have cops believe her? How can she take his son away? He has to come up with 1500. to hire a lawyer while she can use legal aid "because of domestic violence" She is claiming he has beaten her. I have known both of them along time and she is a liar. Her day in court will be soon. I am not just saying that because he is my brother, I am saying it because, this is the second time she has been down this road, just with a different guy.
Granted we are not a perfect family but she has done nothing but bring my brother down along with his family. I really don't want to air my dirty laundry but sometimes, it's all I can take. I don't know who I am more mad at.......her, court system, cops, my brother, lawyers. He just wants to see his son. I want to see the little man. I miss him.
Becca had a game last night. She played great and I smile from ear to ear every time someone complements me on her. She rocks! At the start of the season, she didn't believe in herself, now she is coming into feeling good about her skills. She knows she is getting stronger and better. The coaches are even telling her and working more with her one on one. She has 3 more years of basketball in high school, they are grooming her for the up coming years.
Britt is still trying to figure out Air Force or Army and what programs suite best for her. We stand behind her 100% on whatever she wants to do. Well, no student loans. I don't believe in those. I wish my parents backed me in high school but my brothers got most of their time. My mom was also getting ready to leave my dad.
Well, it's off to city council to see what is going on in our city. Fun!

She Rocks!

They may have lost the game by 6pts but "Red" played the whole game and had the most points. Rock on girl.

Being Strong

I just want to give a shout out to my brother. You maybe, 5 yrs younger than me but I look up to you for your strength. I saw you crumble today but you picked yourself up. You are a fighter who will not let her bring you down.
You will keep on fighting to the end. I will be standing right by. 12 years ago you let me lean on you and now I am here for you. Lean on me.
We will fight whatever, she throws at us. She will slip up and they will see right through her as the others have.
I know it is not fair that you can not see your son. I know you miss him and I do not know how you do it but you keep going. Knowing he is all you have.
You are a wonderful dad. Know that we love you and so does little Z.
Be strong.

Wordless Wednesday

Not Me! Monday?

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I am not playing "Not me Monday" from MckMama
I didn't play a video game all day yesterday. A game that I just hate. A game that I can beat my sons at.
Ford and my brother didn't work on his truck all day. They didn't need a bar of soap for their potty mouths. My sons' didn't come running in and tell me the word that they used. Oops. I didn't then hear my son use that word when his lincoln log house got ruined. I almost didn't have a heart attack when he explained to me that "dad and unc say it all the time, just don't tell mom where you heard it" What? I didn't ban the boys from the garage while they were working on trucks. Then, I wasn't told to quick over reacting and boys will be boys. Nope not by my brother.
I didn't make 3 pumpkin rolls with cream cheese filling for my family to eat them all. Then, to tell me there is nothing to eat in the house. I didn't get 2 request from my brother to make him some if he buys the goods.
I didn't smile proudly when my daughter made baskets at her last game. And, I didn't glare at the women behind me who made a comment about my daughter. Even, when she keep on flapping her mouth, I didn't turn around and I didn't let her know that was my daughter. Nope, not me.

2009

I am just hoping 2009 is a much better year for us. 2008 stunk! Plain and simple. I think it all pretty much started in March when we found out Curtis' mom had colon cancer. Curtis was really sick also. After, many test he found out he has adult asthma and allergic to his own body. They gave it some name and I can't remember. His meds have sucked us dry. He got laid off. Twig's recovery was a long road ahead for all of us. We didn't know that it would be until October that she would start to be feeling better. Curtis found another job that lasted 3 months and laid off again. Brittani spent 3 weeks in Europe which I had panic attacks about. Trouble with calling cards, atms and a whole mess with the bank that should have been addressed before she even left. I think I lost many sleepless nights and gained a few gray hairs.
We have been struggling money wise this past year and feel that our ship is barely afloat. Between Curtis' and the boys' meds each month it is a struggle.
My brother is going through nastey custody battle with his ex. I have many sleepless nights worring about him. He lost his job also.
Curtis' brother has gone awal and hanging out with the wrong kind of people, such as my brother's ex. One would think he would know what kind of person she is. He will only learn the hard way such as my brother did.
I know this is only the tip of what happened but it has to be better.
Curtis has a job interview on Monday and I am crossing my fingers that he gets hired. It is a city job so the benifits will out weigh the wage cut that he will be taking. Becca's team won their basketball last night. The first game of this year. She even made the first points. You go girl. Brittani meets with the airforce next week and everyone goes back to school. My brother has 2 court dates next week to get his son back. I am looking to this as a good start.