Tid Bits

Things here have been so crazy. Brittani made it home safe and sound. We all went to the airport. I don't know who cried more me or her. It was just a long time away from her with out being able to call her every day. Would have done something different. Oh well.
I seem to have my 6 year old nephew every day now. My brother has finally gotten temp custady him. The best thing for him.
The boys start soccer practice next week. Need to find cleats and shin guards. I can't believe how fast the summer has gone. Both girls will be in high school. Just shaking my head.
The girls went and saw their dad's family last week. They had not seen the girls in almost 2 yrs. I want to post a whole entry about this later. Just a big mess. sigh.
Hopefully, I will have time tonight. We are off to the beach for the day tomorrow. They say 99 in the valley tomorrow. Too hot for me.

Roller Coaster Ride

That is how the past two weeks have been. We have just been so busy. Becca has been home this week. Boy, did the boys miss her. I missed her too. It is so great to have her home. Britt will be home tomorrow. Whew. It has been a long three weeks. I haven't heard her voice for over two weeks. I have talked to her via email twice and a text. I don't know what I will do when she moves out or goes into the service?!
Not much else other than my brother's ex wife shit but, that's not my problem and not really wanting to get into other than wacked out.

I miss her

Because, I miss her sweet smile, giggle, and her glem in her eyes when she tells me something she enjoys.

I got a phone call late Sunday night/Monday morning at 1:00 am. "My atm card won't work! I can't get any money out" I had this panic go through my body what's wrong when the phone rang. The last thing I was worried about was Britt. My step dad is out of the country also. My brother just went thru a nasty marriage. My mother in law has cancer. Britt was the last thing on my mind. I thought we had everything covered when she left. We did everything they told us.
I camly told her it would have to wait until Monday morning. But it is Monday morning and I have no money. I can't do anything until the bank opens in 9 hours. Oh yah, I could see her smile. The glem in her eyes.
I went to the bank. They forgot to send the email to the card office. I left 45 minutes later, why so long. I wanted to make sure, it was taken care of. I was not leaving until I knew my daughter had money. Got home and sent her an email. Looks like it's ago. I was wrong so wrong. Bank calls yesterday. She keeps on trying to access checking, well they don't give you a choice. And to top it off you can NOT access saving accounts. Why didn't the bank know this? Hello! I am hoping the problem is solved. I opened a checking account and attached her bank card to it. So, it looks like it is ago for her to have money. Hopefully, tonight or tomorrow morning. Otherwise, I can try and Western Union her some money. Hello..........she is basically backpacking thru Europe.
I hope to know that she has gotten money soon. Time to go check the bank and find out. Then, I will know she is smiling.

Phone Call

I got a 3 minute phone call from Britt. We had a bad signal on my cell phone going thru the mountains on our we to the beach.
She is having a blast and misses everyone. She said Italy was dirty and stinky. (I guess, they are on a garbage strike.) She is sick of pasta and bread. Oh my, favorite. She is now in France. They went to the beach yesterday. Tomorrow, she will be staying with a family. I hope I will have another phone call.
I will update more about our weekend later.

Sucks!!!!!!!!!

Today has been such a trying day. First, Becca is home sick in Seattle with my step sister and her family. What am I to do. She is not eating and crying. I told her I would come and get her but she wants to stick it out. If she is not happy...................I hate it when my kids hurt.
The boys have been hell on wheels today. Why? I guess, maybe because ford and I had a fight last night. We don't agree on how certain things should be handled. I don't believe in spanking with a belt. He does. With out going into a of detail but my dad raised us with a firm hand. I don't want my kids raised that way. When ford get really tired, he has no patience with the kids. It has gotten worse over the past 6 months. Mainly, when his mom found out she had cancer. Sometimes, he just leaves my heart aching. I am not sure if his love is healthly for us. If that makes any sense? I don't want to live the rest of my life walking on egg shells. Hell, life is too short. Trust me.
I know I could raise the kids on my own. I don't want to. I want us to be a family and that is slipping away so fast. The girls are older and doing their own thing.
I just feel he sometimes takes everything and turns it around. Which, then makes me the bad guy. What the hell! I am the one that holds this family together. He is the one that comes home...............works on truck, eats, and goes to bed. Maybe, he's not happy. I just wish he would tell so I would know.

Email

I got an email from Britt. She is alive and well. She is having a hard time with the phones. She is having a blast and she did repell down the castle wall. Brave for her. I am so happy for her. My mood today has been on cloud nine. I think I smiled all day today. What a relief. More to come later.

Breath Deeply

Still no word! It is after midnight in Assisi Italy. Day 4 without hearing from her. I am sure it is because, phones and time are hard to find. I know they changed hotels. I was hoping for some sort of word from her today.
I hope she is having a blast. I wish I could so be there. Maybe, Ford and I can take a vacation there some day. I would have to lose weight first. I should make that a goal.
I know on Tuesday, they stay with a host family. Hopefully, I will get a call then. I am praying for a call then. I should have gotten the international cell phone rental. Oh well. I just need to breath deeply.